|
If you could chose a father, just what would you see Its just that I dont know, please explore this concept with me For I know I have to chose someone, for mine is no longer there He hurt me silently as a child, he showed me he did not care So here is a little 10 year old, just wandering what is a dad? Just what is this concept, if not horror, fright and feeling sad If I had a dad like you, I would not have these many tears I would not sit alone at night, reliving nightmare, horror and fears And if I fell over, and scrapped my knee today Would you help me carefully, and wash my worries away And what is a father, just what is that concept there When I was raised with evil, with no one there to care And when I am in your presence, should I feel scared and dismayed Should I feel a racing heart, backwards and forwards, a little frayed And if I was raised with evil, would I know that in my mind Or would it just disappear, leaving me further and further behind So would you sit and listen, as I told my story to you I could not get out the words, my childhood was really bad too But if I could chose a father, just who would that be To replace the one that caused this horror, abused and molested me So can we cross this wooden bridge, and can you promise to me That it will not be repeated, because my soul cannot let it be And can you promise for eternity, not only this life but next That you will leave me alone, and not constantly ask me for sex For you see this is what my daddy did, every opportunity he had I was just so alone, having no one, feel safe and call a "dad" So if you want to help me, just sit here and hold my hand And teach me what a good father does, teach me to understand.
|